Passion is what you wake up breathing and go to bed dreaming.
Sometimes Passion hits you when you are young and you don’t even know what it is. Sometimes it comes later in life, and you are excited and ready. But when it hits you, there’s no stopping it. You can’t control Passion. Sometimes you don’t know what it’s going to look like, and you never know when it’s coming, but when it does come, it grabs you, and it doesn’t let go. It wraps its arms around you and envelopes your soul. NO, it doesn’t let go…And, if you are lucky…really lucky, you will be blessed with Passion your whole life.
I don’t think you don’t choose a Passion, I think it chooses you. There is no conscious decision. One day you wake up and realize that a life without your passion is a life not worth living. That you’d rather follow it than breathe…than take another step. Passion is not logical, sometimes it makes no sense…Passion doesn’t lead with the mind…it leads with the heart. Sometimes Passion takes you places you’d rather not go, and it leads you in a different direction than you’d ever planned. But you can’t control Passion…it controls you.
Passion is in my friend, Allison’s son, Charlie. Charlie plays the violin. As soon as he could talk, all Charlie wanted was to play the violin. Allison told me she gave him a toy violin for Christmas when he was 3. It was a “kid” violin. “No“, he said. “I want a real violin.” She said, “We finally gave up.” When Charlie was five, they gave him a real violin and lessons. Passion is Charlie coming home from kindergarten,(now 5th grade) and racing up to his room to play his violin.
I now see Passion in my daughter, Emma. Her Passion is the theater. The hours she keeps, the days she’s gone, the family time we sacrifice, the vacation time she misses in order to do what she loves, what she says she can’t “live without”! I couldn’t understand before…but now do.
And now? Passion is what makes me wake up early, take a walk, drive to work, pick up my 5th grader, run interference on homework, field emails, figure out dinner, (Oh, Gosh! I can’t forget dinner! I blog food!) And all the while? I’m holding in thoughts…ruminating…hoping I can remember what I thought about on my walk, the drive to work, when I was reading, “The Hungry Caterpillar” to 28 kindergarterners, the drive home…the car line…and then? Thoughts rushing…pouring from my finger tips…I’ve realized, that is Passion. The I-can’t-wait-to-write feeling.The reason I haven’t been able to read a novel, wanted to “craft” something…sew…paint or plant. It’s the reason I’d rather cook, write and take photos than do just about anything.
I can’t say I’m particularly passionate about cookies, white chocolate, or even macadamia nuts, but I had planned to write “Passion” for my one year “Blog-a-versary”. And I almost forgot it. (It was yesterday) I’m not usually all sappy and sentimental about that sort of thing, but here it is a year later and I’m still as fired up as I was a year ago. I had to write, and what’s a food blog without a recipe? Everybody loved the cookies, so here they are. Maybe they’ll be your passion?
White Chocolate Chip, Macadamia & Toasted Coconut Cookies
1 1/2 cups butter, softened
1 cup granulated sugar
1 1/4 cup packed brown sugar
1 tablespoon vanilla
4 cups flour
2 teaspoons baking soda
1 12 oz package white chocolate chips
2/3 cup toasted coconut flakes
1 cup chopped, toasted macadamia nuts
Heat oven to 350*
- In a mixing bowl, beat butter, sugars, vanilla and eggs on medium speed until light and fluffy. Stir in flour, baking soda and salt.
- Stir in chips, nuts and coconut.
- On an ungreased cookie sheet, silpat or parchment, drop dough by tablespoonfuls. Flatten slightly. I made my cookies more like 2 tablespoons. I wanted big, fat cookies.
- Bake 11 to 15 minutes depending on how big you make them, or until light brown. Cool a few minutes and then transfer to a rack to finish cooling.
- Makes 3 to 5 dozen depending on how big you make them.